lala
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
NICK JONAS!!!!!! =DDDDDDDD
sigh.
♥ my red umbrella
5:19:00 PM
5:19:00 PM
tea was good. a little too sweet tho =]
had some interesting insights..
i know its pretty duh and like the typical default answers.. but it really hit me this time, i don't know why..
don't workhard just to win others, for the sake of competition.
workhard to learn. get the skills to do ur job well next time.
if it's all about doing better than others.. it's gonna get tiring aft some time.
but if u do it to learn. u'll enjoy it. u'll learn better.
my flaw is.. i hate to lose.
and i'm not even really competing with others.
i'm competing with myself.
and it really does get exhausting..
blame it on all my yrs of doing well.. =x
now i can't even stand the feeling of gettin a B..
perfectionist.. i'm sick
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ok moving on to happier things.. finally took pics of my happy yellow wedges! ^^
oh but they hurt.. so so much X) why do i torture myself.. (coz they make my legs look so thin)
I LIKE THISdearie and i had a big fight last night =[ a quarrel.. over the phone. and online.
it sucks to fight NOT in person. coz then i can't hug him and make it somehow all okay..
ppl don't get so angry and mean in person. actually. more like in public.
anw last night's fight was the biggest yet. at least i think it was..
woke up with puffy eyes so sore i couldnt even recognise myself. =[
it's alrite now..
love love
this is the new olive oil fried chicken at cine basement.. yummm. but didnt see my primary school friend this time..
hot hot drums! (seriously)
original
hot hot drums! (seriously)
original
♥ my red umbrella
3:29:00 PM
3:29:00 PM
aduh
Saturday, February 21, 2009
finally. it's the one week sem break. yay. why do i not feel much? time has made me numb.
physio test was hell. think i didnt study quite as much as i should have. but seriously. what's the point of us memorising all these itsy bitsy details now? do they honestly think we'll remember this 4 yrs down the road when we go out to wk and actually start affecting lives? actually. right after the test. poof. it's all gone. maybe they wanna test our memory skills. whoever can cram more wins! oh great. i see no end to my constant headache..
uni feels.. heavy. yup that pretty much sums it up.
like a burden. a big fat burden.
like an iron wall u gotta lift to get thru to real working life. (ninja warrior! whoo)
all students hate school rite? nothin unusual there.
sigh.
do u ever have moments where u feel that life is.. meaningless?
not in the freaky suicidal way. but the, what exactly am i doing, who exactly am i, why am i me, why am i here..
who do i live for, what do i live for..
to put it in other words.. highly psychological stoning.
i don't even know what i'm typing about.
mugged abit of econs just now.
ppl study hard, to get good grades.. good grades gives u a good job? thats not for certain. good grades make u happy? yeah.. for like a day maybe. but pursuit of those good grades make u UNhappy. is it economically worth it? think of all the better alternatives with way higher utility. but then, no mug equals bad grades which equal very very VERY UNhappy in the near future. and this might lasts for.. ever.. a scar o.o ... good job gives u good pay? buy nice stuff. happy? good job makes u happy. hopefully.
i do realise the music is way contrary to my mood in this post.
be happy. for the little things.
♥ my red umbrella
4:48:00 PM
4:48:00 PM
mydrawingsss
Sunday, February 8, 2009
I realised i didnt really write anythin bout cny. hmm and now it's over.. well kinda.. tomorrow's the 15th day, the last day of cny.. goin grandma's place for dinner tonight. i thought of having like a fashion post bout the cny outfits HAHA but then i realised i didnt really have many pics of the clothing... mine or others.. which is rather unusual of me.. HMM.
so anw.. the pharm hoodie thingy is off. dang. so now i wanna get a jacket! with a hood! hmmhmm lemme draw....
hah! mmmm not bad. i'm surprised.
i want those velvety kind. like the jogging suit those caucasians like to wear. but add some fauxfur to the lining of the hood, presto! perfecti-on! i'm thinkin dark purple or dark green. hee. i actually saw one i really liked at zara. but at that time the pharm hoodie was still on. RAH. and now it's sold out =[ WHY OH WHYYYYYY. everythin i like seems to get sold out. stupid stupid! i should just learn to NOT ponder so long over it. first the aldo bag, then the charles n keith bag, then the jacket! sianssss
hmmmmm drawing is fun. saw a lady carryin this bag. i really like it! mayb cause the lady just worked it.. HAHA.. she looked like those power career women, short spikey reddish pixiecut, formal wear. mmmmmmm i looked n i looked but no idea wad brand etc.. ok my drawing doesnt do it justice..
i want my lunch. mr mcdonald's deliveryman.. could u drive a little faster? hee
♥ my red umbrella
1:42:00 PM
1:42:00 PM
BIG SMILE
Sunday, February 1, 2009
i'm so into this song right now. hopefully u can hear it. it's by nelly-iz. it was the first song played during the "haunted mansion" credits. it's so addictive! haha...
today was sooooo sooooo FUN =D visited ms ye. exchanged mandarins etc etc. played Wii! heeeee super loadsa fun man! it's those brainless violent games u play with a whole bunch of friends that's always the funnest! =] sadly someone wasnt there.. and nobody really knows why.. =/ HMM
lotsa pictures n videos on facebook now. lotsa unglam moments too haha.
Bahasa indonesian is so fun! hee. so glad i chose it =] it's really like a "break" from school. from the typical school stuff anyway. selamat malam! i need to sleep early. tomorrow 8am school all over again. sigh. so long my precious weekend! we shall meet again.. sampai nanti,mari... =]
p.s. aku cinta john <3
♥ my red umbrella
9:51:00 PM
9:51:00 PM